I admit it. There are times where I feel everything is hopeless and don't know if the uphill battle I am fighting is ever going to pay out to anything. Especially with the knowledge that the quest for grad school may end up just the same as last year and having a lot of spare time on your hands makes you think what could or might happen.
It is also admittedly hard to give everything up to your maker in hopes that he will guide you to what you hope is the right door....your door. Sometimes when it seems you do not see an answer for months, you close your eyes and begin to think all is lost. That everything you have worked for might mean nothing.
Yet, I have a simple reminder that this not true. That the fight for the dream career is worth taking on.
It is a simple letter from my father that was given to me while on a mission trip to Alaska. In it, he reminds me that I am loved by both him and family. Moreover, he reminds me why taking chances are so important. He reminds me that experience is the best thing to have, but you cannot just attain it by standing around.
It is, in a sense, a reminder that the world can be harsh, but I will always be loved. Yet, it tells me to live life day by day and to live those days fully. If God gives you a chance, you go for it, but remember to keep your head on your shoulders.
If I could see my father, I would tell him that one of his greatest gifts to me was that simple letter and the advice that came with it. I would tell him that it is also one of those things that will be a light for me in dark places, even when all other lights go out.
---Ellen
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